Post-exams used to be a time where we’d just spend our days happily and not having to worry much, other than the fact that our exams results would eventually be released. But now, its kinda stress? I seem to have so much time on my hands, but as usual, I think I’m rather packed for this period of time. Or maybe its just my inability to juggle my time around well hur.
FA practices start tomorrow – kinda excited cos I really need to start moving and getting back into shape! Shall try to run on a regular basis too!! 
What’s really worrying me now is applications. Applications, with a capital A, and all the way from the A to the S. Internships, scholarships and most importantly, university applications. I’m really scared that along the way my interest would change, just like the way it switch from Sciences to History after coming to NUS High (yes, I know it sounds lame, but it’s a fact). Would I be able to bring myself through four years, or even more, of a subject that I currently like, but might not like in the future?
I’m still undecided of what I want for my future. Which internships to take, which relates to which scholarships I’d want to apply for. Which scholarships to take, which will define the next 4-6 years of my life after I graduate. Which courses do I take, or at least, apply to, which will in turn affect my whole future? Turning 18 isn’t really a good thing at a point like this – it’s decisions, decisions and decisions, which will ultimately affect the rest of your life. And the only thing I’m really worried about, is whether these decisions I’m making now, will have a positive, negative, or even detrimental effect to my future. I wish I could be a kid again, where graduating from a school only meant you’d have another school to go to.
I have so many things I need to settle, but I think I’m merely running away from them. Or at least attempting to.
